darling darling darling

i just bought a new computer :) my darling macbook pro. it's truly beautiful. i can't believe i've gone years without a computer! i already feel so much more connected to the world. this is going to help.

so i'm packing our food for the planeride (it's 2:30 am and i'm nowhere near done) and i decided we need to pack cheerios. so i put them in a tupperware and decided it was too much so i poured the cheerios into a smaller tupperware. there was a little left over in the big tupperware and i decided that instead of pouring the remaining cheerios back into the cheerios box, i could dispose of them by dumping the rest into my mouth. it ended up being about the largest number of cheerios i could imagine fitting into my mouth, so i'm hangin' out in the kitchen, chubby bunny style.

in comes larry and he asks me "how's it going??" to which i have to answer an indistinguishable "good" through my mouthful of cheerios with my cheeks puffed out. god so cool.

by the way i love larry and there is just no way to even describe the past couple months. a big important thing to say is i kind of want to quit but at the moment i don't care because in 12 hours i'll be IN THE TROPICS and in a few weeks i get to visit home, home sweet home!!!!!!!!!!!

im so tired

it's so weird because this job can be so amazing on the one hand, and so frustrating on the other. it's hard not to freak out but the good is so good!

today i had a few hours off and i just walked around my neighborhood. first i started off at "french roast" this adorable french cafe style restaurant and i got yummy breakfast quesadillas and coffee. the weather today was so perfect i wanted to cry. i felt good about figuring out the city and i got to all the places i needed to. it's so insane to have EVERYTHING i could ever want in walking distance! i walked to urban, sephora, little boutiques, barneys (so inspiring), ricky's, i walked through a craft fair next to central park, i got pinkberry (yum yum yum yum finally!!!), i loaded up on my aveda needs. it's nice to be alone. and it's nice to be with friends!

hanging out with orla last night was so unexpected and turned out great! i have such a good feeling about being here. she showed me around the lower east side and east village and i feel like i'm in love when i walk down the streets. they are brimming with such life! the bars we went to were right on spot. talked to some of the nicest people in the world. oh i bought perfect boots yesterday too! and ate at some cute igloo feel thai place with huge $5 sake cocktails! all in all a total success :).

it feels soooo amazing to have separated myself from all the negative energies my life used to hold. my heart still aches all the time though, but i know that's normal. i feel like i'm learning so much. even the cab drivers and doormen have such interesting stories. new york is so unbeatably cool!

PS i can't wait to go to tortola!!!!!!!!

i knew it

living in new york is worth it even if you have to work 16 hours a day every day.

oh but i'll give you a clue. okay maybe this isn't a good clue, i'll call it a "teaser".

first i will start by saying that i might be the only person i know (other than my sister) who loves sarah mclachlan A LOT. and i'm okay with that and will always support her lyrics music and voice forever. i don't remember much of what else i would want to say. probably just thinking about how much i still love my wild rose dove deo and that now i'm addicted to seinfeld. sometimes i think about going to bed around 10 but then i have to stay up to watch seinfeld from 11-12 and then i'm not tired because it's so funny to me still. also to remember that i want to volunteer with kitties and i need a new notebook. the brandwhore in me wants a moleskine.

i can't talk too much about what might happen in the next week or it definitely won't happen. but i can say that i'm going shopping today and i'm so inspired from having nothing better to do than obsess over fashion week!

positively positive

still trying to surround myself with good energies because that's the only way i can truly live up to my expectations of myself. out with the bad, in with the good.

eternal optimist!