oh yeah and getting married

i think i'm going to wear my hair down and kind of wavy and a little veil that goes over it that i can't describe with my mother's dress. the kittens i have now i will have when i get married! isn't that weird? also have been thinking about my friends getting married, even though they are not. and being happy for them. i just want to be happy for everybody and i am. i think people are happy for me but they shouldn't be, which is mean but i already said today that i'm not good at being nice anymore.