2009

i'm going to overlook christmas for just a moment, and jump to my promises for the new year.

things:
-i'm not going to drink any more pop. not even diet coke. unless it's mixed with an adult beverage. hopefully this won't result in the unnecessary consumption of rum at odd hours, but i'm going to try it nonetheless.
-i swear i'm going to save money. i am going to put every happy greek paycheck into my savings account, because they aren't a reliable source of income, anyway. soon i will be able to buy a computer.
-i'm going to read the 20+ books i have lined up for myself in my bedroom. oh and start reading science fiction. and nonfiction.
-i'm going to clean the litter box every other day, at minimum.
-i'm going to lose like 20 lbs (duh)
-i'm going to try to somehow find a way to build an amazing clientele and dedicate more of myself to my profession.
-and start building a portfolio (someone help me!)
-i'm going to join a choir/volunteer (two things i always make a small effort to do but never succeed)

in attempt to make this post slightly less boring to readers (all 3 of you), here's a video i found particularly amusing tonight:

barack obama

is president!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

51 seconds remaining

on the library computer.

this sucks.

i want my own.

checklist

-make caramel apples
-maybe fog machine
-orange pbr
-spooky cloth hangings
-NEED MORE IDEAS, TABLES, TAPE,
-black martinis, spooky punch, pumpkin ales, and spiked cider, idk

i am so so so happy for saturday already!!!!!!!

oh yeah and getting married

i think i'm going to wear my hair down and kind of wavy and a little veil that goes over it that i can't describe with my mother's dress. the kittens i have now i will have when i get married! isn't that weird? also have been thinking about my friends getting married, even though they are not. and being happy for them. i just want to be happy for everybody and i am. i think people are happy for me but they shouldn't be, which is mean but i already said today that i'm not good at being nice anymore.

lost blog

the kind of crap i like:




dear roommates, i will buy these kinds of things and hang them up on our walls i just like trees and flowers and birds but in a weird way and animal things

i failed at electronic checking again this month i'm one day late because i never know or care about the date and life just passes me by pretty much

i do know that my halloween party is a week from saturday though which sucks because i have no idea what my costume is going to be and i still need more scary decorations and time for these things.

i do know that my kittens are the only reason i'm not full blown psycho and sad lately and that the weather right now is perfect fall weather but i can't see or feel it clearly at all i feel like something is weighing down on me ????????? i don't know i just hate when you have to remind yourself to take a breath but you can't figure out why

i remember that in high school i thought i was good at being nice, writing, reading, creating art, singing, having fun, and dressing, and now i feel like i am not good at any of these things

i am happy and thankful though for my family and friends.

i don't know what else to say but i'm probably fine

no net

dude i don't have the internet

i don't really care but now i get such a rush when checking up on perez at the public library

also i don't have a tv

basically, my new apartment is THE GREATEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME, and my kittens

today starts one month of sobriety... i think/hope i can do it! i'm so tired of drinking it's just wasting my money and making me sick and stuff

last weekend i got towed again and got another speeding ticket in mansfield and i'm probably getting my lisence taken away. we'll see but i kind of hate myself. it's time for some major self improvement now that i have apartment and jobs figured out. i also need to make myself start volunteering at medary again because i know i loved it. it's kind of crazy that with no tv or computers, i STILL barely have any any any free time.

i'm getting nervous at work i just want to succeed and have big numbers but it's slowww goinggg especially because i hate marketing and feeling fake

also i'm probably going to bartend at the happy greek, get good, and then bartend somewhere where i can make lots of moneyyyyyyyy

although i'd probably miss slavisha too much

i feel bad for my baby boys and not having names or having too many names

i also feel bad for how my hair looks

but dude my room is so pretty, and so is italian village and i can't wait for leaves to change and pumkin carvin and spooky tunes and cobwebs and ciderrr