no net

dude i don't have the internet

i don't really care but now i get such a rush when checking up on perez at the public library

also i don't have a tv

basically, my new apartment is THE GREATEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME, and my kittens

today starts one month of sobriety... i think/hope i can do it! i'm so tired of drinking it's just wasting my money and making me sick and stuff

last weekend i got towed again and got another speeding ticket in mansfield and i'm probably getting my lisence taken away. we'll see but i kind of hate myself. it's time for some major self improvement now that i have apartment and jobs figured out. i also need to make myself start volunteering at medary again because i know i loved it. it's kind of crazy that with no tv or computers, i STILL barely have any any any free time.

i'm getting nervous at work i just want to succeed and have big numbers but it's slowww goinggg especially because i hate marketing and feeling fake

also i'm probably going to bartend at the happy greek, get good, and then bartend somewhere where i can make lots of moneyyyyyyyy

although i'd probably miss slavisha too much

i feel bad for my baby boys and not having names or having too many names

i also feel bad for how my hair looks

but dude my room is so pretty, and so is italian village and i can't wait for leaves to change and pumkin carvin and spooky tunes and cobwebs and ciderrr