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on the library computer.

this sucks.

i want my own.

checklist

-make caramel apples
-maybe fog machine
-orange pbr
-spooky cloth hangings
-NEED MORE IDEAS, TABLES, TAPE,
-black martinis, spooky punch, pumpkin ales, and spiked cider, idk

i am so so so happy for saturday already!!!!!!!

oh yeah and getting married

i think i'm going to wear my hair down and kind of wavy and a little veil that goes over it that i can't describe with my mother's dress. the kittens i have now i will have when i get married! isn't that weird? also have been thinking about my friends getting married, even though they are not. and being happy for them. i just want to be happy for everybody and i am. i think people are happy for me but they shouldn't be, which is mean but i already said today that i'm not good at being nice anymore.

lost blog

the kind of crap i like:




dear roommates, i will buy these kinds of things and hang them up on our walls i just like trees and flowers and birds but in a weird way and animal things

i failed at electronic checking again this month i'm one day late because i never know or care about the date and life just passes me by pretty much

i do know that my halloween party is a week from saturday though which sucks because i have no idea what my costume is going to be and i still need more scary decorations and time for these things.

i do know that my kittens are the only reason i'm not full blown psycho and sad lately and that the weather right now is perfect fall weather but i can't see or feel it clearly at all i feel like something is weighing down on me ????????? i don't know i just hate when you have to remind yourself to take a breath but you can't figure out why

i remember that in high school i thought i was good at being nice, writing, reading, creating art, singing, having fun, and dressing, and now i feel like i am not good at any of these things

i am happy and thankful though for my family and friends.

i don't know what else to say but i'm probably fine