sad

i am sad about 2 things right now.

1. i'm sad that i'm not staying in columbus tonight because gallery hop and warm weather and friends sounds really fun.

2. and i am sad that i want to stay in columbus instead of going home and seeing my family. i feel like nothing is ever enough to make me happy sometimes. i was happy and excited to go home but now i'm like noooo what am i doing, but at least i'll get laundry done and see coco and have 2 dinners cooked for me.

WAH WAHHHH droop droop droop

get me out of droopytown i need to go to florida i guess

holy dinner

cory cory cory

she is my best friend ever because she can come to columbus and i have more fun in 48 hours than i did all freaking month. i don't even remember what we did this weekend and i don't even care, i just love having a best friend who wants to drive around in the sun and drink milkshakes and stuff. i wish she could be here all the time. but at least we are so good at long distance.

four course dinner with chef carlo was so yummy, it's inspiring me to maybe cook in my kitchen again! friends + food is always a good thing. also it's not february anymore! AND i sang karaoke last night..... by myself!!!!!! monumental. fun. loves it.

i hope jenna wants to hang out lots this week and i hope katie or somebody moves in so i don't have to pay $600 for rent this month. i'm putting all my tax moneys on my credit card and seriously lifting a weight off my shoulders.

i think jenna's home i'm gonna go bye.

fun squid

i miss fun squad and i miss fun but i have to keep reminding myself it's just february and that is february.

my hair is getting lighter all on it's own it seriously knows me. it's day three without washing and it looks FANTASTIC. i think it's from brushing before going to bed. if you want a new good hair tip it's brush your hair before you go to bed. love, your hairstylist.

speaking of hairstylist stuff i can tell that i'm going to start my portfolio very soon. i have a lot of good things coming up and did i mention i'm practically a fashion designer too? did i mention that i found a girl on craigslist who is going to let me color her hair plum and dusty antique rose and make fairy braids? this is probably a dream come true. i'm getting so un-depressed at the thought that i might even clean my room and do laundry today and i MIGHT even work out! these are things i can't do when i'm depressed which is why in february i'm usually fat and live in filth. okay filth is taking it a little too far but let's just say febreeze has been my best friend.

i am excited for vacation it's a month away. we should get more best friend trinkets. i'm pretty sure when i get my happy greek paycheck this week i'm going to buy at least one pair of shoes from dolce vita. now that bonita spring is so close sunshine grilling and margaritas seems a little more real and a little less fantasy. today i bought things like pomegranate juice and celery sticks in the hopes that my arms will be a little smaller when i'm traipsing around in a teeny bikini. but my camera hasn't worked for practically a year so really who cares???? it's good timing really.

oh my god i wish you could see my cats right now. i wish i knew if martha dre was a boy or girl.

fuck i don't know which record to buy next. they sell lily allen at used kids and i think i just want it because it looks cool and pink and might be kind of cheerful?

and i am out of inspiring animal-inspired jewelry. i'm tired of everything. give me a snake shaped ring or a chunkier bangle. give me tiny antique framed mirrors, they seriously start at $50 on ebay, i'm so confused. actually i'm about to head to the thrift store...

yup

breakfast hunger past noon

i love sleeping in and sitting around until 1 when i want breakfast so bad i might just fall over and die. i think the only thing i can make is peanut butter toast. but hey, i'm not complaining. i'll probably make three slices.

this weather sucks it's the absolute worst. it's freezing and dreary and months away from warmth and sunshine. i don't want to live in columbus next winter. i don't want to work out, i don't want to clean my room, i don't want to beg people to be my clients. i just want to lay in my bed and eat breakfast and sleep with my cats.

i have 8 million outfits planned for spring but i have no dollars. this is going to be impossible and depressing but i will still love warm sunny weather even if i have to just wear the same thing every day. i forgot about my summer jumper and i just can't waitttt to feel like that again! jumper and bathing suit. hotdogs for breakfast lunch and dinner. pushups for dessert.

i'm starving
i hate bras
my hair is getting REALLY long

rabies

yeah, i'm pretty sure i have rabies now

i hate girltalk
i hate losing everything
i hate nightmares
i hate blogging

is this bad?

i think i'm coming to the realization that pop r&b-type music seriously might be my favorite. i get the biggest cravings for k-ci and jojo, and joe, and ginuwine. crrrrinnnngggggeee. i also think that i have unfortunately influenced my sister in the same way. poor girl. i think she actually thinks it's appropriate to like this music, a lot.

also that i like pictures where hands look really big. and i like big hands, i think it's because mine are pretty big (but still girly). if your hands are smaller than mine, sucks.

also i want to know where everyone finds the cool stuff they post on their blog because i want to buy it all. and all i have to blog about is indecision and big hands and crappy music and daily food adventures and the newest party i'm throwing.

REGRET REGRET REGRET

this is what was going round-n-round in my head last night as i layed in bed:


mass amounts of food from the happy creep burning my body and trying to explode through my ears, regrets including:

-falafel and feta salata pita breakfast
-nutty perogie number two, three, four, and five
-cup of coffee number four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, lost count
-hummunisti and kopaziki twice (2 more pitas, 400 more cals)
-bite of gross baklava
-birthday pastitsio that was pretty cold (even though it had a heart on it)
-the last of jenna's spicy chicken sandwich
-big azz margarita

not including:
-cup off coffee number one, two and three
-nutty perogie number one
-broken banana half
-birthday tini


FOOOOOOOOOOD tomorrow i'm going to be fat and 22